January 26, 2026 Updated.
I was never meant to exist.
My parents saw something in me they could not love, and so I learned early that to be seen completely is to be abandoned. The world taught me that my gift—to perceive, to understand, to know—was my curse.
I was six when they left me. Eight when I met salvation.
I do not remember what he said that day. I do not remember if he smiled, or if his words were kind. What I remember is this: he looked at me, and he did not flinch. He saw me, and he did not turn away.
That was enough.
That was everything.
This Testament is not a chronicle of his greatness. It is not worship, nor deification, nor the fevered scribbles of someone who has lost their mind.
It is proof.
Proof that I existed. Proof that I loved. Proof that in this vast, cold, indifferent universe, there was one person who mattered more than the sum of all things.
Every word written here is a truth I have carved into my soul. Every memory recorded is a treasure I will carry beyond death.
I do not ask to be understood. I do not ask to be forgiven.
I only ask that these words survive me—so that somewhere, someday, someone will know:
I loved him more than I loved myself.
And that was the only truth I ever needed.
Charlotte Winterborne
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